Death stalked Betancourt's captivity in Colombia

By Alisha Laventure

BOGOTA (Reuters) - Ingrid Betancourt began each day in captivity at 4 a.m. -- cold and depressed but awake in the dark waiting to hear her mother's words of encouragement over the radio.

She was haunted by thoughts of suicide and fears that she would be killed.

Often chained to a tree by the neck in secret jungle camps that were infested by insects and thick with mud, she lost her appetite. If she ate, she would likely vomit.

"Death is a hostage's most faithful companion," she told reporters on Thursday. "We lived with death ... and the seduction of suicide was always with us."

Held for more than six years by the Revolutionary Armed Forces of Colombia, or FARC, Betancourt was the top bargaining chip among 44 high-profile hostages that Latin America's oldest insurgency hoped to exchange for jailed rebels.

But on Wednesday, the French-Colombian national who was nabbed while campaigning for the presidency was suddenly free when the military duped the rebels into releasing her and 14 others.

Details of her captivity emerged from her accounts and those of other former hostages.

Aware other captives had been killed over the years during the lengthy conflict, Betancourt feared for her life, worried the FARC would kill her or that she would die in a battle with the military.