NEW YORK (Reuters) - The man accused of stalking actress Uma Thurman called his actions "misguided" on Friday and said he felt humiliated by the attention he has received.
Jack Jordan, 37, is accused of sending harassing e-mails to Thurman's father and brother, loitering for hours on the steps of Thurman's Manhattan apartment and visiting her trailer on a movie set.
He is charged with misdemeanor counts of stalking and harassment of the "Kill Bill" and "Pulp Fiction" actress and faces up to one year in prison if convicted.
"This was uncharacteristic of me," Jordan told a Manhattan jury on the fourth day of the trial. "Frankly, I feel humiliated by this process right now. What I thought had been private had been made public."
The 38-year-old actress testified on Thursday that Jordan's actions had caused her to fear for her life and the safety of her two children.
"I was completely freaked out. It was like a nightmare," Thurman said.
The actress's mother, Nena Thurman, said Jordan called her home in Woodstock, New York, and sent about 20 e-mails from 2005 to 2007 to her husband, Robert Thurman, a professor of Indo-Tibetan Studies at Columbia University.
"I was very respectfully trying to make my existence known to her," Jordan testified. But he said he felt Thurman's assistants and security guards made courting her impossible.
"I was trying to, in a misguided way, get her to meet me ... while adhering to the law as well as her privacy as best as I could," he said.
Jordan, who lives with his parents in Maryland and is training to be a teacher, said he had also sent Thurman more than 20 letters after he was confined to a mental institution.
His parents had him committed after his visit to Thurman's movie set.
Jordan said his attraction to Thurman started as a high school crush and that he came to believe they were "destined to be together."
"I was overcome by a strong feeling of affection for her," Jordan said. "To me, it had a sort of esoteric feel to it. I had never experienced that before in my life."
He said he had sent Thurman a cartoon of a razor blade and a picture of a bride without a head because he thought the images were funny and he hoped to endear himself to Thurman.
Editing by Daniel Trotta and Xavier Briand